Late April…

I remember the morning we met
And how foolish I must have seemed
My face blushed when you smiled at me
And I stuttered as I tried to speak

Your hands warmed my frozen blood
And your voice melted my glacial rage
Your smile drew me from the dark
And your kindness brought me from my cage

You unlocked each iron door
As if you'd always held the key
Before fear compelled me to run
You were already holding me

Early June…

I'll remove this iron core
I don't need it anymore
I want my heart of flesh restored
So she can help me wash away the nightmares of before

And though I fear that she may ask
If I can live without a mask
I'd give anything she asks me for
I feel the peace with her I've spent my whole life longing for

July 1st…

I never blamed you, but I'll never forget
The way I felt on the morning you left
A promise as you boarded your flight
One last kiss, one last goodbye

We swore we'd be together again
Then you turned and walked away
But three tortured months later
Your final letter came

I think I must've always known
That we would someday end this way
Maybe that's why I didn't try
To ever convince you to stay

Now destroy this heart of flesh
I won't need it anymore
Had I known what all I had in store
I would have lived my life with just this goddamn iron core

Though with time this core's born rust
At least in iron I can trust
And I don't love you anymore
Forget you ever met me and please think of me no more

I never blamed you, but I'll never forget
The way I felt a year after you left
To this day, when I close my eyes
I can still see you crying

And I can hear the Voice in my ear
Saying "I told you so."
"Now do what must be done"
"And just let her go."

"Time and again you were warned"
"Of the price that comes with love"
"And in the end you'll find"
"You'll just never be enough"

Now my eyes have spent their tears
And my smile has disappeared
And I hide this with the masks I've worn
And life goes on without her as if she was never born

But every night I lie awake
This was so much more than I could take
And I have the will to try no more
I've lost everyone and everything worth living for

The Boy:
“I am coming undone. Was she really all that was holding me together? It is NOT better to have loved and lost….”